It's a Waiting Game

I haven't updated lately mainly because I haven't had anything good to update with! It's been a rough month or so with trying to get everything straightened out.

About a month or so ago I was having pretty bad hyperthyroid symptoms so I had my doctor run labs on me. I was really hopeful it was the LDN I was taking lowering my thyroid antibodies meaning I needed less thyroid medicine. I got my results back and both of my antibodies were higher than they've ever been....sigh. So the hyperthyroid symptoms were just from my body attacking my thyroid and probably my low tsh. I was pretty down about it, but I had been waiting for my endocrinologist appointment for a few months and it was getting close. I figured I would just try to focus on that. I will admit I had read reviews on the doctor I was suppose to see and I was nervous. From what I read I didn't think he would do much for me. After waiting three months for appointment I knew if I showed up and he did nothing I would probably start crying in his office. I felt like there was no other choice but to take this next step so I just tried to prepare myself.

God always takes care of things though because last week my doctor's office called me and said they wanted to cancel my appointment with that endocrinologist. They had other patients go to him and they weren't impressed. My first thought was relief because I was already dreading going to him and what my doctor's office said just confirmed what I was feeling. My next thought, frustration. Not at my doctor by any means, but I had waited about 2 1/2 months already with nothing to do to help myself in the meantime and I'm a fixer, so that is hard for me. I dint do well sitting and waiting and I knew it would probably take another 2 or 3 months to get an appointment with a different doctor. But I reminded myself the wait would be worth it for a decent endocrinologist. So the nurse I was talking with about a new endocrinologist recommended one and I said I was fine with that. I have to give my doctor and her staff tons of thanks and credit because they ended up calling me back that same day saying someone had come in and complained about the second endocrinologist they suggested so they didn't feel I should go to him either. They called several offices and did a lot to make sure I found a good one. We went through several different doctors, but today I finally got an appointment with one that was recommended to me by someone we know. So I go August 6th to see the endocrinologist now. Its tough to have to wait about 6 months to even know what the next step will be, but I know it's better this way. I know some of you may think 6 months is no big deal, but we are coming up on 4 1/2 years of no pregnancy so waiting that much longer feels like forever. We would appreciate your prayers in this!

I have such mixed feelings about the whole thing. I talk to several people who have Hashimoto's and they say you can most definitely get pregnant with elevated antibodies, as long as your free t's (thyroid hormones) are optimal. Mine have been for a few months and since my hormones have finally started to straighten out, but still no pregnancy. Then my mind wants to kick into worry-mode, "maybe there's something else we are missing?" It's hard not to think that thought, but if there is I don't know what it would be anyways, so I can't do much about it! So we just kinda go with the laid back approach. After this many years is there any other way to be about it but laid back? Nope. We have discussed fostering and even adoption. Bobby is all for adoption, but we would prefer to adopt an infant and that just doesn't happen without great expense. So we have discussed foster/adoption through a program called The C.A.L.L. We went to their information class a few months ago and we were very impressed. Its a Christian organization and I would highly recommend checking out their website if you're at all interested in foster/adoption.We would also appreciate prayers for wisdom on what to do with all that we have going on and what will be coming up in the next few months!